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Showing posts with label trust. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trust. Show all posts

Thursday, August 15, 2013

I Hear Wedding Bells ❤

Elissa Anne Photography

"When I found him whom my soul loves; I held onto him and would not let him go." 
– Song of Solomon 3:4 

At last, now the world can behold the beautifully married Catholic couple everyone's been chatting about recently, Mr. and Mrs. Robert (Bobby) Angel. How appropriate that their last name is Angel, right? These sweethearts are such a great example to other Catholics who are currently in relationships of their own or are in the midst of discerning the Sacrament of Holy Matrimony. If you don't know about these two newlyweds, Jackie and Bobby, you can become accquainted with them through their blog posts at http://jackieandbobby.com/. Nevertheless, this cute couple finally took their vows of true, pure, everlasting love for each other during their wedding Mass in California on August 10, 2013.

I haven't personally met either Jackie or Bobby, but I have come to love who they are through their postings on their blog, Facebook, and Twitter sites. These two lovebirds seem to be perfect for each other! However, they were not always together. The first time I ever heard about Jackie was from a YouTube video that showed up in my Facebook newsfeed a few years ago. It was called the "Ache of Singlehood." In this video Jackie describes the ache a heart feels from being single as a single woman herself. But she notes that it is a good ache because it's ultimately our longing for a deeper relationship with God. Jackie explains that no human person can satisfy us and only God can fill that void, or that longing, deep within our hearts. And the deeper relationship we develop with Him the deeper our trust and our love will be for Him.

This trust helps us to give our heart's desires to God and wait for His holy Will to transpire in our lives. If we are called to a married life then this ache is just another confirmation that we are destined to that particular vocation. The hard part is waiting. All of us single ladies feel that it is an endless wait for our Prince Charming to sweep us off our feet. But on the contrary, look at Jackie now! She was one of those ladies too, but now she is happily married to the man of her dreams! In the end, waiting for the right guy to show up is much better than settling for the wrong one.


Although Jackie did not know her future husband was Bobby during the making of the video, shown above, you can see how much peace she had from trusting God. This type of peace comes from accepting singlehood as a gift and learning to make the best of it until Mr. Right comes along. You can see she was perfectly happy and content being a single woman even though she still had the ache for a relationship. However, she developed her relationship with God more and more everyday. She continually grew to love Him better and more perfectly than the day before. Along with that, she prayed a 54-day-rosary novena for her future husband who was actually in the seminary when she met him.

Of course every Catholic girl knows that seminarians are off limits—otherwise you are given a bad rap and are known as a "chalice chipper." So obviously she wasn't intending to befriend him as more than a friend. But it looks like God had different plans. Apparently Bobby was still discerning his call to the priesthood and was open to let God redirect his path, if need be.

After spending time together on a retreat for Theology of the Body the pair of them became inseparable. In his blog post Bobby states, "I was still technically a seminarian, but I was given such clarity and peace during this week [at the retreat] with Jackie that I knew this was the sign I had asked God for." Both Jackie and Bobby knew they had found "the one" even though they didn't vocalize it until much later. It was all about trusting in God's Will and God's timing, which they both did. They even found each other on a retreat that brought them closer to God together! How wonderful!? Jackie and Bobby have a remarkable love story. You can continue to read more about their courtship on their blog by clicking here.

Besides the two of them being the cutest Catholic couple ever, their story (which they kindly shared with us on their blog) is a story of hope for all of those who are also waiting for the right person to be united with in the Sacrament of Holy Matrimony. As a girl, most of us women want to meet the man of our dreams and marry him in our early or mid-twenties. But even when Jackie saw her other friends get married or become engaged she kept her faith in God that He was still saving the perfect person for her in His perfect timing. And guess what? He did! His timing was not too early and not too late, but just right. Maybe if Bobby was never in the seminary he would have never gone on that retreat or met Jackie. But since they both heeded to the Will of God they found each other under the right circumstances, in the right place, and at the right time.

Also, just as a side note, this "Catholic" world is so small that I feel very devout Catholic people are all connected somehow (besides the Eucharist in Holy Communion, lol). Apparently Bobby Angel was a seminarian from my own diocese here in Florida, the Diocese of St. Petersburg. I actually know some of his seminarian friends and Father Victor Amorose who said one of his first Masses as a priest at my home parish of St. Paul in Tampa. Father Victor attended their wedding ceremony along with my local bishop from St. Petersburg, Bishop Robert Lynch (seen in the photograph above). Bishop Lynch anointed me with the Sacrament of Confirmation many years ago and now he's blessing this couple with the Sacrament of Holy Matrimony on their wedding day! How beautiful!

So for all the single ladies, like myself, please don't give up hope on finding your Prince Charming. He is out there right now, living and breathing in this very world we live in. He will come when the time is right if you let him by trusting in God. Give God all the desires of your heart and surrender to His Will with complete trust that He will fulfill them. If you really love God and believe this I guarantee you won't be disappointed. You will only be disappointed if you don't surrender, otherwise you will have no regrets.

And who knows? Maybe you've already met your future husband or maybe you already have mutual friends with him and you just don't know it yet. Personally I believe if you are an ardent and devout Catholic you are probably less than two degrees of separation between you and your future spouse. Like I said, we truly live in a small "Catholic" world. Everyone seems to know each other! It is a beautiful thing. But as you are waiting to meet "the one" my advice is to lift up your intentions for your future beloved during Mass at Holy Communion. That way the two of you will meet every week in the flesh of God until you truly meet in the flesh—face to face.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Walk By Faith


"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me." – Psalm 23:4

If you watched the Discovery channel on Sunday night this past weekend I'm sure you were sitting at the edge of your seat, waiting in anticipation to see if tightrope walker, Nik Wallenda, would make it across the Grand Canyon. Nik Wallenda is famous for doing these dangerous high-wire stunts along with the rest of his family. He is a descendant of the daredevil stunt performers known as the "Flying Wallendas." He lives in Sarasota, FL with his family near the Ringling Circus where he practices for these events.

Although I have never met Nik or his family I have been to Sarasota several times to visit the Ringling Museum. They have beautiful artistic masterpieces there, to include my one of my favorite paintings known as The Blue Madonna by the Italian artist Carlo Dolci. The Ringling Museum is most definitely my favorite part about going there. Also, Sarasota is a very gorgeous city right near the water! I can attest to the fact that Nik is very blessed to live with his family in such a beautiful Floridian area.

Nevertheless, no matter where he may be, Nik always keeps himself grounded in prayer as he performs these major hire-wire stunts. Last year I saw him on TV as he crossed the Niagara Falls from the United States into Canada. That was quite a risky endeavor. However, I noticed Nik seemed to keep calm as he muttered the praises of Jesus along the way.

In his recent tightrope walk Nik crossed the Grand Canyon much the same way as he did over Niagara—but this time he was even more vocal about calling to the Lord for guidance and strength. He thanked Jesus, our Lord and Savior, over 60 times as he walked to the other side. Watching his body language, I could tell he seemed to be much more uneasy with this walk compared to his others in the past. Maybe he felt more uncomfortable since he was standing on a 2-inch wire that swayed in the turbulent winds at about 1,500 feet over the Grand Canyon! Although he seemed to be very unsettled by the situation he was in, Nik kept praising God the entire time. He remained focused and unafraid as long as he kept his thoughts and prayers on Jesus.

This reminds me of the story of Jesus walking on the water. When Peter had seen Jesus standing on the ocean waves, in the middle of the storm, he got out of the boat and started walking towards Him. But at the very moment he lost eye contact with Jesus his thoughts shifted away from the Lord and he became frantic—starting to sink into the sea. Then Jesus reached down and pulled him back up, saying, "You of little faith. Why did you doubt?"

In comparison, Nik Wallenda also battled the elements of the major winds coming up from the Grand Canyon, much like Peter did in the storm. However, Nik never lost complete concentration on Jesus. His entire walk was a constant prayer. Even when the wind became too much for him to handle he knelt down to regain his balance on the wire. He did this several times to ensure his safety and trusted that the Lord would get him across to the other side. Being human, I could tell that he seemed worried at times...but it was at those moments when he called out to Jesus more.

Just as my sister said the other day, "Nik Wallenda crossed the Grand Canyon! Truly an incredible testimony for faith in God and how dreams do come true." The point is, he never gave up when it was hard, he never quit on his dreams, and he never stopped believing that Jesus would come trough for him. He is a great example of total trust and surrender to God. His family even prayed together beforehand for his strength and protection.

I am so happy that he followed his dreams of walking across the Grand Canyon and gave witness to Jesus Christ in this modern-day world. Millions of people across the globe watched him that night! It is truly remarkable to the reaction people gave him in being so outspoken with his faith. Nik even got #Jesus trending worldwide on Twitter that night. What a blessing for so many people to see the miracle of this man walking 1,500 feet above the Grand Canyon and making it to the other side alive and unharmed! How incredible!?

It just goes to show that we can get through anything if we trust in the Lord Jesus. He is there for us, always watching, with every little step we take. We just need to be more aware of His presence.

With that said, I want to leave you with a recent message from Our Lady of Medjugorje. She always calls us to draw nearer to God. I truly believe, like Nik Wallenda, that is what we must do with our lives. Everyday we live is a new opportunity to draw closer to God. One day we will get there when we reach the gates of Heaven, but we always have an opportunity to strengthen our relationship with Him each passing day. Also, we must help our other brothers and sisters in Christ along the way to the path of salvation as we go through our own journey.

On June 25th 2013, the 32nd Anniversary of the Apparitions of Our Lady of Medjugorje, the Blessed Mother Mary said:

"Dear children! With joy in the heart I love you all and call you to draw closer to my Immaculate Heart so I can draw you still closer to my Son Jesus, and that He can give you His peace and love, which are nourishment for each one of you. Open yourselves, little children, to prayer—open yourselves to my love. I am your mother and cannot leave you alone in wandering and sin. You are called, little children, to be my children, my beloved children, so I can present you all to my Son. Thank you for having responded to my call."





            

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

God's Inspiration


"But when He, the Spirit of truth, comes, He will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on His own; He will speak only what He hears, and He will tell you what is yet to come." – John 16:13

About a little over a week ago I went to St. Paul, Minnesota, to visit my new school for the first time! I'm so excited to attend the University of St. Thomas in the fall for the Master's program in Catholic Studies. This school is such a blessing! Everyone I met up there is so friendly. The people are so welcoming, I'm sure this new school will feel like home in no time. However, the climate is a big change from where I'm from. Since I've only lived in Florida I'm used to a hot and tropical climate, as opposed to the cold northern temperatures. But I really feel in my heart that going to St. Thomas is a step in the right direction in accordance to God's will and His future plans for me.

The first day I came to St. Paul I met up with some friends I had connected with online prior to arriving. It was so great to finally meet them in person! First, we had lunch at a cute little Italian place close by. I would say it seems to be like the "local hang out" for everyone off-campus. Then, we took a walking tour of the entire university and I was exhausted by the end of it. Not to mention, we still had more sight seeing! After that, I checked out the place that I'm planning to rent with some girls. I'm excited to be living with them in the fall, however the place we looked at was not what I had expected and I started to have some doubts about the whole thing.

Moving is a big change, living with people other than my family members is a big change, the climate is a big change, the location is super far from my home—definitely a big change, the academic work seems to be very rigorous and writing intensive—a very big change from being an art major, and the list goes on and on. However, there are so many good things about this program! The girls and other people I met up there are so wonderful! Like I said, everyone is so friendly. The professors are very nice and super intelligent. They seem like they are willing to help out any student if they tend to be struggling in their course. I also met several priests on campus and I think they are amazing! I can't wait to get to know them more and have in-depth spiritual discussions.

Although there are many changes and challenges that will come my way, I cannot lose hope. I was most definitely called to this university by God, Himself. I can only imagine that I would regret the decision for the rest of my life if I chose not to go. This opportunity doesn't come around everyday and I have been very blessed with it. So I am choosing to let go and let God. I'm surrendering to His will and letting Him take me wherever He wants me to go. And apparently He wants me to be a St. Thomas Tommie girl.

Have you ever heard the quote by St. Therese, the Little Flower, "God does not inspire us to do what cannot be done"? It truly means that if God places a great desire in our hearts that it was meant for us! This Catholic Studies program seems to be like the perfect fit for me. God would never have placed that desire in my heart if He didn't want me to pursue it. Although everything that comes with the program, like moving from FL to MN, will be challenging it does not mean that it is impossible for me to overcome.

The same goes for you! Many times God will test our abilities by giving us a great challenge to strengthen our faith. If you have ever felt there is something you want to do but you are having a hard time doing it, it is because there are obstacles in the way meant for you to overcome. Throughout the journey you must place complete faith and trust in God—total surrender, if you will. Surrendering to God may be the hardest part of it. But as I said, if the opportunity is meant for you then it will not be impossible for you to complete. It may be hard, but not impossible. Nothing is impossible with God.


The rest of my trip was very good, even though I had several debates with myself trying to figure out if this is truly where God wants me. I have come to the conclusion that it mostly definitely is. Another friend of mine took me and my mom over to the St. Paul Cathedral for Mass on the night before we left the Twin Cities. It is such a beautiful and massive church! The architecture is so golden, detailed, and extremely elaborate. It makes you feel like you are over in Europe. After the Mass I just knew it was the right place for me. The University of St. Thomas is set right in the middle of a huge Archdiocese! The Cathedral is so great and I can see how there can be many opportunities in this area for Catholics.

While I was there, I also found out about this great app on the iPhone called "Rediscover." It is part of Matthew Kelly's ministry about Rediscovering Catholicism. It is based out of the Archdiocese of St. Paul and Minneapolis, right where I was! After I downloaded the app I found out about a ton of events going on in the area to hear Catholic speakers. There is so much you can access on the app in regards to learning more about the Catholic faith. I definitely encourage you to download it. The app is free and can be used on iPhones and iPads. The following video about prayer by Matthew Kelly is shown within the application. Take some time to check it out and I promise you won't be disappointed!

 

Thank you friends in Christ, for viewing my blog. I'm so happy that many of you have found it and are inspired to learn more about the Catholic faith. As you may know from my previous blog post I am still trying to raise money for a family pilgrimage to go to Medjugorje and Rome next summer. If you feel called to, in your heart, please donate whatever amount you can. If you cannot because of financial reasons, I understand. Instead please send up a prayer for us to go! Thank you so much. However, donations are not tax deducible, but are greatly appreciated! You may use PayPal by clicking the button below or use the GoFundMe widget on the side bar to donate to our cause for the family pilgrimage. Thank you again! You are in my prayers. God bless!

           

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

I Will Go The Distance: Jesus, I Trust In You!


"But I do as the Father has commanded me, so that the world may know that I love the Father. Rise, let us go from here." – John 14:31

Hello my dear friends in Christ! This summer has been filled with wonderful blessings so far, and still more to come. This week I plan on going to visit my new home at the University of St. Thomas in St. Paul, MN! I can't wait to meet everyone and see the place for myself. I know it's a very far journey, but traveling is always a fun and exciting adventure.

Meanwhile, as I've been planning to head to Minnesota, I believe God has been planning a trip for my family and I to go much further. Over the weekend my mother came to me with exciting news about a pilgrimage to Medjugorje and Rome next year with Father Donald Calloway, MIC. I had briefly seen something on Facebook about it, but didn't read much into it until she brought me the flyer. As I looked at it more closely I felt a strong yearning in my heart, a holy tug on my soul, that wanted me to go there. Since my family and I have already been to Medjugorje before sometimes I feel that other people should go on those pilgrimages to see and experience the graces for themselves, like I did. However, this pilgrimage not only stops in Medjugorje, but also in Rome! I have never been to Italy or the Vatican and I have always wanted to go, even before I knew about Medjugorje.

During my last year in college I studied Italian Renaissance art in my art history class. This course heavily concentrated on images from famous artists—such as Michelangelo, Leonard, and Raphael. Looking at the Sistine Chapel and St. Peter's Basilica in the textbooks was always so fascinating...but I never really thought I would have the opportunity to see them in person. Now, all of a sudden, one of my favorite priests is offering a pilgrimage to go there along with a joint trip to Medjugorje on the way. How exciting!?


I have known Father Calloway for several years now, at least since 2008 or 2009. Since then we have kept in contact and my family and I would see him every time he came to our area in Florida. It has been a joy knowing him! But actually I don't think we have seen him in person since late 2010...so I definitely miss him very much. He is an extremely devout Roman Catholic priest with a high admiration for Our Lady. His book No Turning Back: A Witness to Mercy is a MUST read. His conversion story is incredible...a true blessing from Mary. Plus, he also came out with a new book called Under the Mantle: Marian Thoughts from a 21st Century Priest. I have yet to read it, but I can't wait to get my hands on it.

So as my family discussed the subject of this pilgrimage we became very concerned with the amount of money. First of all, it is about 4,000 per person! Yikes!!! On top of that we would have to pay for our own transportation to New York for the departing international flight...possibly another $500 a person. Then we have to have our own money for lunch, other food, and possibly personal transportation. Easily another $500 or more per person. That comes out to at least $5,000 a person and there are 4 people (including me) in my immediate family. I'm not the best at math, but I realize a trip like this for our entire family is going to cost around $20,000! Meanwhile, I'm just a poor college grad student trying to make it day by day.

There is a LOT to consider when you don't have the money, but you really want to do something. However, it's not impossible. Three years ago I went with my family to Medjugorje and somehow God provided a way for all of us to go. People just came to us with money out of the woodwork because they wanted us to go on this pilgrimage together, as a family. It was incredible! Definitely only something that God Himself could orchestrate.

Although I realize it seems like a far fetched idea, I still believe. God was able to get us to Medjugorje once, I know He can do it again! This pilgrimage is in a year (June 2014)...so between now and the time the money is due I believe He will find a way for us to get there. Why wouldn't God want us to go as a family with Fr. Don Calloway, one of our beloved priest, to Medjugorje and Rome—the Eternal City!? As a very devout Catholic there is nothing more I want to see in this world than the Vatican and the Pope. It would be amazing to have that opportunity! Plus, we would get to see so many historic artworks, like I learned about in my Renaissance class, and relics from some of the most amazing saints.

With a faith stronger than ever, I truly believe God will send my family and I next year to Medjugorje and Rome with Fr. Calloway. This is definitely something He would want us to do together, to grow in faith and love among some of the greatest treasures the Catholic Church has to offer. The other day I messaged Father about my excitement and how I believe God will provide a way for us. In reply he said, "Sounds good. You are a living example of 'Jesus, I Trust in You!' See you in Rome and Medjugorje! Blessings to you always!"

With that message in mind, the next day my family and I attended Sunday Mass together in the morning on the Feast Day of Corpus Christi, the Body and Blood of Christ. It was sad to see how few people came to this particular Mass, especially since it is a Solemnity. Even so, our family was chosen out of all of those who were there to bring up the gifts to the altar. We've done this several times before, as a family, but this time we felt very much "chosen" to do so. Just as we were picked from the crowd to go before God with our humble hearts, offering the gifts of bread and wine, I believe He has "chosen" us again for a family pilgrimage with memories that will last a lifetime!

Thank you for reading my blog! If you would like to contribute to our pilgrimage please send donations through PayPal or GoFundMe. You can use the donation widget on the sidebar if you wish to give. Thank you so much! If you cannot give because of your own financial hardships I completely understand. Please just send up a few prayers so that we can go! I know God will provide...and when He does I can request your petition to bring to the Father of Mercy at the Vatican and in Medjugorje. I appreciate all of your prayers, love, and support. Thank you! 




           

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Be Satisfied With Me


"Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you." – Psalm 63:3

Happy St. Valentine's Day!!! ❤ Today is the feast day of a wonderful saint who was a priest and martyr for the faith. St. Valentine is the patron saint of love, couples, young people and happy marriages. For many many years now, people have been exchanging Valentine cards to express their love and affection for one another. This goes back to a legend of St. Valentine. While he was in jail, on the eve of his death, he wrote a farewell note to the jailer's daughter and signed it "From your Valentine."

Although this day is meant to commemorate a great saint, it has become commercialized to the extreme.  Around the end of January you can't go into a store without seeing hearts, balloons, and dazzling cards with red and pink sparkles. However, these materialistic goods can be used as a kind gesture from the heart if given in moderation and for sentimental value. I personally love giving and receiving Valentine cards or eating Valentine cookies with friends and family. It's a time to show how much you truly care about those you love and hold close to your heart.

If you have a spouse or a special someone to share the day with it can be a lot more enjoyable! Maybe the two of you have a date planned for the evening or an outing with a group of friends. If you're a Catholic couple, maybe you'll spend it in Adoration with Jesus. Or maybe you'll stay at home and watch a fun and uplifting romantic comedy together. Whatever it may be, it is always nice to be with the one you love.

That being said, I do feel for all of the single folks out there. Not having a Valentine on Valentine's Day can be tough; especially when you see lots of other couples walking around, holding hands, and staring into each other's eyes. Everybody wants to be loved—and it's okay to feel this way. But it's not okay to dwell on it so much that it brings your spirits down. Remember, moping is not hoping.

One of my friends that I talked to last night emailed me a beautiful prayer today. It is a prayer written by St. Anthony of Padua and it's perfect for singles on Valentine's Day. After reflecting on this prayer, Be Satisfied with Me, I feel as though Jesus is asking for our trust and complete surrender as Catholic singles in waiting. He wants us to fall totally and completely in love with Him first before we meet the right "one." Although I know my greatest love is my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, there is a certain plan He has for me that only He knows. He has a plan for all of us! What we need to do is pour out our love for Jesus and then things will just fall into place according to His great plan. The more we plan on our own the more we could possibly be getting in the way of His bigger and better plan for us.

So whether you are single, married, divorced, or widowed let us give all of our fears to Jesus and have Him enlighten us with His hope and love. Let us be satisfied with Him and know that all things happen in His own good time.

Notre Dame Basilica Wedding

Be Satisfied With Me by St. Anthony of Padua

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,
To have a deep soul relationship with another,
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied,
Fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone,
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me.
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone.

Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship,
That I have planned for you.
You will never be united to another
Until you are united with Me.
Exclusive of anyone or anything else.
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, to stop wishing, and allow Me to give you
The most thrilling plan existing... one you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best.
Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.
Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you.
Just wait, that's all. Don't be anxious, don't worry.
Don't look around at things other have gotten
Or that I have given them
Don't look around at the things you think you want,
Just keep looking off and away up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.
And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than you could dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,
I am working even at this moment
To have both of you ready at the same time.
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me."

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Here And Now


"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34

I've realized sometimes we think too much about the future and what it holds. It's good to plan ahead for certain things in the short term. But most of our long term situations are out of our control. God wants us to be present where we are at this time. By thinking so much about the future we miss out on today. Dwelling on thoughts that question where we are headed in life make us doubt the Lord and what He has to offer. 

God knows the desires of your heart. He truly wants to give you all that you desire and more! But in order for His plan to transpire we must trust and surrender to His Holy Will...even if we do not yet understand it. It can be extremely difficult to give all of your fears and worries to Him, but that is where faith comes in. Faith, in itself, is complete trust. Igniting our faith in the Lord with prayer and supplication helps us to release our fears and surrender to His Will.

Every once in a while I'll catch myself thinking about why God put me in Florida, where I am today. I never chose to be here, but here I am. Don't get me wrong... I'm ssoooo thankful to be here! I love living in the Sunshine State. I love my friends, family, church, school, Disney World, beaches, and everything else about Florida. But sometimes I wonder where my future husband is. It makes me sad to think maybe he's not living close to me...and then I think maybe I would be happier living there, wherever he is. However, now I see that it doesn't matter if he's living half way across the world... I know God will bring him to me at the right time, in the right place, at the right moment, and in the right way.

Right now, apparently, I'm not suppose to be with him. Right now I'm just suppose to be living my life as myself — a Catholic college student (in Florida) that loves God, family, friends, and being an artist. You are also meant to be where you are today. The school you go to, the place you work at, the friends you meet, and the city you live in is all part of God's plan for your life. It's so easy to get caught up in "what if" scenarios. But at the end of the day, all the possibilities don't matter. What matters is right now. Just by dwelling on the future doesn't help us get there. It's what we do now with the opportunities presented to us which will produce an outcome... hopefully in accordance with God's Will if we've surrendered to Him.

All of this reminds me that a few days ago on Twitter I saw @TheSingleWoman post, "You are where you are, at the time that you are, for a reason. Don't waste it by wishing to be somewhere else." That really hit home with me. As I approach graduation I still wonder where God wants me to go. But dwelling on where I should be or shouldn't be, as I said before, won't help me get there. Just by taking it one day at a time I'm sure that I'll find out where I am suppose to go and how I will get there. Trusting in the Lord takes patience! This is why I'm currently praying a 54-day Rosary Novena for my future husband and career path. In time, God will answer me. I just have to patiently wait for His answer while continuing to be the best person I can be, which is what He calls all of us to.

As for you young ladies seeking a future spouse, I found this blog post by The Catholic Young Woman called Right Now, which I encourage you to read. It's really good! The post is filled with lots of insight on why prayer is for now and being with your future beloved is for later. I would also recommend that you pray a 54-day Rosary Novena for your future spouse. A really funny Catholic lady, Jackie Francois, prayed this novena and miraculously received her answer! Right now she is 28-years old, and even though she would have liked to have met her beloved earlier in life, this was the right moment for her. I'm so happy for Jackie and Bobby! They are an adorable couple. If you'd like to check out their blog site go to this link: http://bobbyandjackie.com/. They have a great inspirational story that gives hope to us young woman who are seeking a holy, Catholic man of God.

I truly believe God has a very special purpose for your life. Don't lose hope if you feel that you're not sure where to go. Just put all your faith and trust Him even when it is tough. I guarantee that you'll be happier and more satisfied with yourself in the end if you do than if you don't.  ...Thanks for reading my blog post! Have a wonderful day and God bless. :)

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Facebook Friends In "Real Life"


"Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth." - 1 Corinthians 13:6

Ok... so admit it, we've all done things a little backwards before. For example; sometimes we go to the mall, pick out an outfit, buy it, take it home, and then try it on. However, it is usually better to try on the clothes at the mall first, before you buy them, just to make sure they fit and look good. When you take home the outfit first there is a big chance you might not like it and want to take it back---because from my shopping experience---the outfit almost always looks better in the store, on the rack, then when you take it home and try it on.

The same goes for meeting people online before you meet them in person. (Not that people are like clothes in any way, shape, or form. lol. But the example here seems to showcase my point.) This is sort of backwards to how you would normally meet a person. It is much better to meet them in person first and to connect with them online afterwards. When you meet someone online first you don't have the luxury of seeing who they truly are. They could easily hide behind a profile of what you think they are. From my recent experience, I found out this is truly the case. Even if you really really think you know them, you can never be 100% sure of anything about them until you see them face to face. When someone is dishonest with you in real life it is easy to see their body language and personal reaction. This makes it hard for them to deceive you. But through the internet, texting, and sometimes even in phone conversations being deceptive can become very easy.

For example, I met someone online through a Catholic dating website---let's call him Andrew (although that is not his real name). Andrew and I talked for several months on the phone. We seemed to have lots in common---from our faith, music, movies, books, all the way to taste in food. We had loads of fun chatting for hours at a time. I truly thought he was unlike anyone I ever knew. He made me feel so special. We connected on social networking sites and video called each other. He actually lived very far away from me, so this was as close as we could get to be "in person." Since I saw him on the video chat I thought, Yeah, see, he is who he says he is. It's fine. *ahhemm* ...Not really.

Little did I know that Andrew was not who I thought he was. Over time it became easier and easier to see the reality of the situation. I don't believe he was being completely honest with me and I find that unsettling. It's sad because Andrew and I never got to meet face to face, but it was his choice. Early on we arranged a way for us to meet up in person but it never worked out. I believe God was protecting me from getting my heart even more broken. I'm not going to go into anymore details, because it's over and doesn't need to be brought up again. The fact is, I was painting a picture in my head of who I wanted him to be which was different from his real character.

"The man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out." - Proverbs 10:9

This type of deception is very alarming. That is why I caution anyone who tries online dating, even on Catholic websites, because you never know who it is you are really talking to. Even one of my very good friends had the exact same thing happen to her! I honestly don't condom meeting people online. I actually know of some people who found their future spouse on the same Catholic website and it turned out to be completely fine! It was absolutely wonderful!!! But I'm just putting out a fair warning to anyone who wants to try it.

The good news is that God can, in fact, bring us holy Catholic people closer together through the internet. Like I said, meeting people online is not bad at all. There just needs to be a precaution taken into consideration. I've met many people online first and then in person. I actually met the Nolan family on YouTube. Eventually we met in person and took a pilgrimage to Medjugorje together. I've met several other classmates on Facebook first and now one of them is a really good friend of mine.

Furthermore, I've been talking to a Catholic girl on Facebook named Therese for a few years now. Somehow she found me and sent me a friend request with a sweet message. I accepted her and guess what!?! We are now actually friends in real life! I just met her a couple days ago. She is truly a remarkable person. For the longest time we've messaged each other, texted, phone called, and Skyped. But now, we finally got to meet in person. This is very unusual because she doesn't live anywhere near me at all. In fact she lives many states north of Florida, where I live. However, she decided to go to college in Florida and we were finally able to meet in person.

It was so surreal when we actually met. It was almost like seeing an old friend that you hadn't seen in a very very long time. Therese is a wonderful person! She is Catholic, devout, faithful, loyal, honest, trustworthy...and the great part is, she really is who she says she is. Therese encompasses all the qualities I actually imagined her to be. There was no fraudulent picture of her in my head. This confirms that our friendship was not fantasized, but it actually was and is real. It is so refreshing to know that since I recently had a not-so-good-experience online with Andrew. But after praying about it for some time now, I think I see why God allowed that experience to happen and why it didn't work out. It was a very good learning experience. It has made me wiser and more wary with people I meet over the internet.

I am grateful for knowing Therese and pray that we continue to be really good friends. Like I said before, meeting people online can be a very good thing since you can reach people of the same faith outside your local area.

But if you are trying online dating websites I suggest to match up with people within the same vicinity, or state, at least. Even if you find someone else outside your local area---who might be many states away---just make sure you don't get your heart too caught up emotionally right off the bat. You need to find out from them if you'll ever be able to meet them in person, otherwise it is a waste of time. If you're never going to see them why continue the relationship? So, my advice is to pray for that person. Pray a novena for you and for them if you feel called to meet them in real life. And if you are not currently online dating, but want to, I suggest to pray a novena for that too. Ask Mary in the rosary. I guarantee she will lead you to those who also hold her, as a mother, close to their heart.

May God bless you! 

Monday, August 20, 2012

Back to School


"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:9

It's that time of year again! Time to head back to school for all of you young people out there. I know... a new semester can be daunting and a little frightening sometimes. You may have all new teachers and classmates. Maybe you are just finishing your last year of high school and starting to apply for universities. Some of you may be entering college for the first time, now. Maybe you're taking a new step and moving away from your parents. Going into college for the first time can be nerve-racking, but you should embrace the experience as an exciting new adventure that God has planned for you!

I remember my first day of college orientation. I was really nervous. I barley knew anyone. So many thoughts raced through my head, like, "Will I make any good friends here? Will I like my classes? Are my professors nice? Will I get good grades? Can I figure out this computer software? Do they have decent food here? Am I going to get lost? Does that cute boy over there even notice me?" ...etc. What I've learned is that life will throw crazy curve balls at you. So even when you think you know of everything to expect something will always surprise you.

If you're entering college as a freshman don't be discouraged when trying to make friends or figuring your way around campus. Even if things don't seem to be working out at first, don't give up. It's easy to let your emotions get the best of you when you are upset or scared about something. My advice is to take this new opportunity and learn from it. Grow to become more independent. Grow to become more holy by trusting God completly. He will provide for you. His heart is an endless ocean of mercy. No task is too big for Him to take on for you. If you are worried, just pray and pour out your sorrows to Him. He will comfort you, bless you, and console you throughout your college years.

If you are like me, entering your last year of college as a senior, I can relate to you very well. I feel very familiar with my campus, community, and friends. I love where I am at and I don't want it to change. However, I know that I only have a year left. I know this can't last forever. I'm seeking out what to do once I graduate college. I am looking into grad school programs, employment opportunities, and internships. There are so many paths to consider. The question is... which one do I choose? Which one is the right path that God desires me to take? I don't have all the answers now, but I'm hoping to find a clearer path of where I'm suppose to go and what I'm suppose to do closer to graduation.

Each new stage in life has a loveliness and growth that helps us to become the person we are meant to be. It is not always easy. In fact, it can be very difficult sometimes. Transitioning from one place to another can be very intimidating, wherever you are coming from. Going from middle school to high school has its challenges as do going from high school to college. The next transition for me is undergrad to grad school or some type of job in my field of study. Who knows what that will be at this moment? But I am going to lay it all in the hands of the Lord. I am going to give all my worries to him so I don't have to, as should you.

A Student's Prayer - by St. Thomas Aquinas 

Come, Holy Spirit, Divine Creator, true source of light and fountain of wisdom! Pour forth your brilliance upon my dense intellect, dissipate the darkness which covers me, that of sin and of ignorance. Grant me a penetrating mind to understand, a retentive memory, method and ease in learning, the lucidity to comprehend, and abundant grace in expressing myself. Guide the beginning of my work, direct its progress, and bring it to successful completion. This I ask through Jesus Christ, true God and true man, living and reigning with You and the Father, forever and ever. Amen.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Moment of Impact


"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7

All of a sudden...BOOM! Your life is never the same again. Just like that! In the blink of an eye! And there's nothing you can do about it. What is done is done. Have you ever experienced that moment or known someone who has? Let me tell you, it isn't fun if the moment of impact is traumatic. I have been in a state of shock for the last few days with what happened to a church friend of mine.

It all started as a peaceful day in Daytona Beach. My friend, Austin, was having a family reunion for Father's Day weekend. You wouldn't think there would be anything to worry about on this beautiful, relaxing day in the Florida sunshine, right? ...Wrong. Apparently the guys decided to go body surfing in the Atlantic. Somehow Austin caught a dangerous wave that threw him down hard. He must have hit the back of his neck in a certain place that shouldn't have been hit. From there the paramedics took him to the Halifax hospital in Daytona where he has been in the ICU for a few days.

It is awful to think that this beautiful young man of God, a strong devout Catholic who just graduated from Franciscan University of Steubenville, may have a very hard life ahead. He is basically immobile and has no feeling in all of his limbs. I am literally torn up by this thought and it has brought me to tears. How could this have happened? Why? WHY?!? Especially Austin, who is a wonderful man and comes from a great Catholic family. He, of all people, does not deserve this one bit.

As Father's Day weekend came to a close my parents put on a movie for our family to see called The Vow. It is a great movie. I loved it! I saw it in theaters before with my friends, but as I watched it back over again it really hit me hard when Channing Tatum's character Leo started talking about "moments of impact" in our lives. Moments that hit you hard all of a sudden which you can't control. In the movie he says, "The moment of impact. The moment of impact proves potential for change. Has ripple effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashing together. Making them closer than before. While sending others spinning off into great ventures. Landing them where you've never thought you've found them. That's the thing about moments like these. You can't, no matter how hard you try, controlling how it's gonna affect you. You just gotta let the colliding parts goes where they may. And wait. For the next collision."

As I see it, in moments like these, friends and families either come together, stronger than ever, or begin to fall apart...(referencing the colliding particles, as perviously mentioned). In the The Vow, Leo was entirely dedicated to his wife... willing to go above and beyond the duty of a normal husband because he loved her so much. I can see with Austin's situation how supportive all of his friends and family are for him!! Prayer warriors across the globe are praying for him day and night. He has a whole fleet of angles at his beckon call! I can see from going on his website and his Facebook posts from friends just how much everyone cares for him. I, myself, have been constantly keeping him in prayer throughout the day, during Mass, and in my rosary intentions. If anyone can get through this it WILL be Austin! :) What a testimony that would be! Such a glory story for the power of the Almighty God if he is to have a full recovery.

I'm sure if you have read my other blog posts you know that I believe God can do impossible things. Miracles do happen! In fact, they happen everyday if we open our eyes. It's a miracle that you are alive and breathing right now, right? Everyday is a gift. Every moment is a miracle. We must never let the little things in life be taken for granted. Just the thought of walking right now is beyond what Austin can bare at this moment. He is taking it day by day. One step at a time. Which is the right thing to do for his recovery.

Reading the verse Philippians 4:6-7 gives me a peace of mind and a hope for Austin. So in situations like these that are very traumatic lets not become panicked or flustered. God wants us to take a deep breath and relax. Worrying is not going to make it any better. Once we have surrendered our anxiety over to God we need to be faithful in prayer and place all of our trust in Him. Through this we will experience God's peace in our heart and mind that will get us through all of life's trials that wait ahead.

If you would like to send a prayer message to Austin please visit his website http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/austinjsmith. Even if you have never met him before I'm sure he'd love to hear of your prayers and support. Thank you so much! God bless!

Monday, June 11, 2012

In Your Time



"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven." 
- Ecclesiastes 3:1

Recently I saw a movie with my family this past weekend called "In Time" starring Justin Timberlake and Amanda Seyfried. It came out last year and I really wanted to see it in theaters, but I finally got to see it now. It was an enjoyable action-packed movie. But if you know the story, time is literally money. It is the currency of the era.  Everyone is in a hurry to make ends meet so they don't run out of time---because if they do, they'll die.

It seems to remind me of what can happen in today's society. People often rush too much to enjoy life. They are only looking forward to a better time, in the future, that may never come. Eventually they let life slip away. They are so set in their own ways that God has no chance to step in and correct their path. Of course God wants to help, because His timing is perfect! But the question is, will we let Him? Will we let His time come to pass instead of our own?

In chapter 3 of Ecclesiastes it says:

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."

God's time directly correlates to trusting Him with patience. Sometimes I try to think how God works...and then I realize that I cannot possibly comprehend His greatness. God is so amazing and so perfect! He has the perfect timing in His plan for each of us. That is why it is so important that we don't mess with it. Forcing our own will with hasty decisions can alter the path that God wants us to take. If we keep His timing and His Will in our prayers we will eventually know what He wants from us. Somehow, someway, God will let us know what His plan is for us. It is not like it's a big secret that He is trying to keep from you. Our Lord wants you to know the plan He has for you. But again, it is placing your trust in Him so that His plan will happen in His time.

God has a map for our lives with His time. It is not predestination because we are given the choice to follow Him or not. If we follow Him we will never get lost. But sometimes we get distracted down the road. I remember last month my friends and I were driving from Tampa to St. Petersburg. It is about an hour away so we used a GPS to get there since we didn't know the way. However, the GPS failed as we were on the highway. While all this was happening I was on the phone with a friend in the backseat and my other friends were talking and singing with the music. Suddenly we realized the GPS wasn't working as we approached a fork in the road. We didn't know which way to take, but luckily my friend Michelle turned left and it was the right way. But then we came to another split. We turned left again hoping we would be lucky a second time. However we ended up going the wrong way, so we had to backtrack. This is just a simple example of how being distracted in life and making a fast decision can literally take you down the wrong path, leading you away from God's perfect plan.

In simple words, let God be the watch of your destiny. He will always show you the right time at the right moment. Let God be the compass of your heart. He will point you in the right direction, always. So whenever you can't find your way, rely on God to help guide you in prayer. He will, always.



Song "Your Time" by upcoming Catholic music artist Sarah Kroger. Lyric video made by my friend Therese.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Let Go & Let God


"I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry." - Psalm 40:1

Hello dear friends in Christ. Happy Solemnity of the Holy Trinity! Today I'm going to continue talking about patience, but this time in the context of specifically waiting for your future spouse. Ladies, if you are a young Catholic woman, seeking a man of the same value, who will uphold your dignity and self-worth...this post is meant for you to read. :)

Late last night one of my good girlfriends came over to visit. We talked about maybe going to the mall or a movie in the evening just to get away and catch up. However, we stayed at my house and talked in my room for probably three to four hours straight. Seriously, it was a great heart-to-heart discussion I really needed. We talked about everything...from school, to work, to our faith, and boys. But most of what we talked about revolved around waiting for the right person to come into our lives, at the right time, and at the right moment.

Do you remember the movie, Field of Dreams? "If you build it, he will come." We discussed how important it is to build a life centered around Jesus and trusting Him to bring you the man of your dreams. Someday your prince will come, ladies. It is just a matter of God's timing and trusting His Will. Rushing into something, like a relationship, that is not centered on Christ or founded in the same faith can lead to serious problems down the road. Sometimes it is hard to believe that there are any good Catholic young men left out there. Even though the ones I've seen want to become priests, I'm sure there are some holy men just waiting to find us good women of faith.

It is surprising though that out of my ten closest girlfriends only three are in a relationship now and four others have never been in a relationship. Even the ones that are dating are not dating Catholic men. They are just Christian. So I'm wondering how on earth all of these beautiful, holy, pure women of God can't seem to find beautiful, holy, and pure Catholic men. Why is it such a struggle? And why do we always keep asking ourselves where are they?

The fact is, God only knows where he is right now. He is out there somewhere, waiting for you... but the time you meet is completely up to God. And I've learned that you can't force it. If you try to and it's not the right time or it's not meant to be it either (a) won't happen or (b) you'll end up with the wrong person.

I haven't been in to many relationships myself. But I have learned a lot from my friends and their mistakes. Let me remind you...it is not quantity that you are trying to find, it is quality. Who cares if you've only had two or three boyfriends... or none. You only need to find one! I know girls who get into relationships all the time and just end up having their heart broken over and over again. You would think they would see the pattern, huh? But instead they keep doing the same thing hoping for different results. What is happening here, is that they are trying to control the situation instead of handing it over to God and waiting for Him to make their dreams a reality.



I found this quote the other day that really caught my eye. It says, "Timing is so important! If you are going to be successful in dance, you must be able to respond to rhythm and timing. It's the same in the Spirit. People who don't understand God's timing can become spiritually spastic, trying to make the right things happen at the wrong time. They don't get His rhythm -- and everyone can tell they are out of step. They birth things prematurely, threatening the very lives of their God-given dreams."

My good friend Taylor, who is a dancer, responded to this by saying, "Yeah that is very true! People rush things too fast in life instead of just letting them happen. Have faith that He will take control... His plan is always bigger and better. So don't try to create something that wasn't in His original plans." This is a perfect example of how you should just let go and let God. Let God work in your life. Instead of trying to seek out your own plans and force something to happen that shouldn't be, just don't worry about it and give it to God. Give God the desires of your heart. He knows that you long for a holy Catholic man...and He will answer you according to His own good time.

For as we all know, the first part of love is patience. "Love is patient, love is kind." 1 Corinthians 13 

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Patiently Waiting For God's Will



"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

Hello dear friends in Christ! I'm so sorry I haven't posted anything on here for a while. I have not forgotten about this blog. My life has just been very busy! As some of you may know, my grandmother passed away in March. It was sad to see her go, but I am very happy that she is no longer suffering and is with God now. After the funeral I was completely consumed with my schoolwork, studying for finals, work, my friends (and their drama plus my own drama lol), family, and life. It has been very hectic, but I'm pleased that summer is finally here and I can relax a bit more.

I hope everyone had a great Easter season! During this time I've been trying to seek God's Will for me and my life. It has just been so hard with so many things going on all at once. I'm just praying that God will give me the patience I need in order to seek His Will and not my own.

Let me share with you a story about my sister. It's interesting because it is so important to know that sometimes what we think is the best plan for us may not actually be. God may truly have something so much better that He wants to give us, if we let Him.



Earlier in May I was helping my sister get ready for her senior prom. She wore this beautiful navy-blue dress with high heel silver shoes. She was absolutely stunning! Her date was a very lucky man that evening. The two had a great time dancing the night away. Then it came time to announce the senior class notables. My sister told me that she was nominated to receive the "most sincere" award. It's really funny because when I was a senior I got the same award from my class and it was a complete surprise because I didn't think I was even nominated. Since she knew that I received it before she was almost a shoe-in for it this time. However, when they called the name for "most sincere" it was not her name.

At first she was disappointed, but at the same time happy for the girl who did receive it. She knew that she wasn't going to let the silly award ruin her night. She was having so much fun with her date and all her friends! Still, in the back of her mind, she was thinking about it and lost in thought. She wasn't even paying full attention when they did call her name for prom court.

One of her friends was like, "That's you!!! Go!!" Still in shock, my sister went up to receive the award of prom princess. Instead of getting a notable award and a single red rose, she received an entire bouquet of flowers and a crown. Another girl ended up being prom queen... but that was fine. She didn't care. Her class did recognize her and crowned her as prom princess! What an honor! And the crazy thing is, she didn't even knew they had a prom princess. What a surprise!

So the moral of the story is... you may think you know what you want, and you may have good reason to believe so. But in the end, God always has the best in store for you, even when you have no idea what that could be! It is important to place your trust and faith in God and completely surrender to His Holy Will.

I have really been trying to surrender recently. And I'll tell you, it is hard. It doesn't come easy. But I guarantee it will be rewarding. Whatever it may be that you are waiting for (and trust me, we are all waiting for something) ...a job, an acceptance letter to a school, an answer to an important phone call, or something much bigger -- like your future spouse -- always, always, ALWAYS make sure you go to God first. Don't let your own judgment of what you think is best get it the way of what actually is the very best! Here is a great quote from Fulton Sheen that I really liked.

"Patience is power. Patience is not an absence of action; rather it is 'timing' it waits on the right time to act, for the right principals and in the right way." 



Trust in God. Let Him bring you through the unknown, which will give you strength. It will strengthen your faith, your prayer, and your desire to seek what He truly wants to give you.

Akiane Kramarik - Innocence, 48"x60", Age 12 (2007)
Medjugorje Message: January 25, 2013
"Dear children! Also today I call you to prayer. May your prayers be as strong as a living stone, until with your lives you become witnesses. Witness the beauty of your faith. I am with you and intercede before my Son for each of you. Thank you for having responded to my call."